I love food. Problems?

I usually had too much leisure time yet I never really pulled to the desire of posting something here. And now,  I'm exactly in the stage of the most hectic time i had ever since I was born, and I keep finding myself want to update my blogpost. Oh, what a weird enhancement.

Well, all I can share is that I got really busy this week that I can't even reach my kosan before 10 PM like everyday. Of course I didn't always get busied by some task that should be accomplished (yea that's right), but I also need to balance my life by tucking some fun between them. Like today, I had morning class until noon (it's like 6 SKS combined), and I decided to go to Perbanas to had lunch with Avril and Panji. There's no particular reason we want to go there since my campus environmental is already fulfilled by food court and cafe. We only need a fresh air, LOL. After eating some very delicious mie ayam (you gotta try it! the food place is near perbanas campus named "mie yamin"), an idea popped into my head that suggested me to watch a movie at setiabudi. Fortunately, this is the very day TED movie is released. More fortunate, my friends were all accepting my invitation. Yaaay!

And the movie was pretty awesome. Well, since i'm not gonna spoiling anything, I just wanna shout that the movie is worth to watch, errrr except for some part that should be censored -_- hail TED! a badass teddy bear. 

Oh and I was crying during the movie. U know, romance movie never manage to get me cry, but a silly about live teddy bear does. Again, I'm weird.

It's TED! he looks cute, right? HAHA, wait until u see the movie :p

productive is always good.

Hallo :d
It's been a hectic week for me and my assemblage as we held an event called "Open House HMM 2012-2013", it's just that this is our very first event so we  were all in need to perform the best on that day.

As a chief of entrepreneurship department, I had to presenting our whole project for this year, where as i predicted, i came up as a vastly-fast-pronouncer because i was way too nervous to talk slowly and clearly in front of all 120something fellow student :( 

But a different feeling came when i got to be an MC with Rere, in quiz part. I really enjoy the atmosphere and i was able to put some jokes that time, it might because i have rere as companion or because being MC doesn't take ur courageous to present all about knowledge or something that come out of regulation. It's like you could say anything you want. hehehe. 

Aaaaaaaand after that, we got a kudos by some people who said that our event is totally rockin. Well, i gotta admit that too, knowing that we put a lot of sacrifice for the sake of the event's successfulness. yay, i'm happyyyyy :D

  

Found this at some random website :(

Married or not you should read this...


“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t

 know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up

A self motivation as in self mockery

First day in Jakarta after a loooong nothing-to-do holiday. I feel like getting my spirit back. Although holiday hasn't over yet, I still have plenty of things to be accomplished before the college day start. I got to arrange some meetings regarding the Kompas seminar that will be held at my lovely campus at the end of this month, while I also responsible for the big event of HMM Universitas Bakrie called Tifocraft which is gonna take place on January 2013. Way to go to the busyland, get your ass ready!

As the journal goes on, I gotta admit to my ownself that I haven't do anything much during my entire life. I have these goals, I keep faith in my future, yet I didn't really try to make it true. I'm not much of a hard worker, these years. Therefore, I have to enforce myself to change this badass habbit if I really want to pursue my dream. I can't be a lazypants frog anymore. 

So, to get to the exact point where one could define themselves as productive, I also made my own list-to-do everyday so that I have no day to be wasted on. Here it goes!

1. Every morning after waking up, don't lost urself in the middle of cyber world a.k.a twitter first, as it will take much of ur precious time. What's the good of being in it anyway?

2. U have to buy at leaaaaaaast 1 novel a month, yeah that's the very least. U gotta buy something to read as often as u can. Read them carefully and pay attention to the writing skills so u can improve urs.

3. The word "procrastinator" couldn't be ur middle name anymore. U gotta move on, babygirl. Do everything as soon as you can accomplish them, not a minute before the time they should be accomplished.

I think that's the most needed for now. 

Ciao, you brilliant readers!

Happiest-at-the-busy-time-writer.

Holiday's Flawlessness.

So, August. Well okay, I should probably remind myself that August isn't really my favorite month, not really, I hate it actually. I also didn't feel like getting much blessing in this Ramadhan month. I wish it's just that God wants to take a lil break from peppering me with His blessing and see how far I can keep my faith in :) He loves me, I know.

Well, I guess I'm about to share why I just wanted to run away. Here's the snippets:

• It's lately been difficult for me to met daddy. He seemed like vastly busy and panic and stressful that when I finally met him, he had no time to listened to all my story as usual. And during my holiday, I only met him once. Yeah, once. Ironic isn't it? I still have sooooooo much things to tell, dad. And I keep waiting as I sit quietly.
• I lost someone that definitely been my precious one for this whole 9 months. It's not the separating that drives me sorrowful, it's the fact that's hitting me that he didn't feel lost the way I did. He even seemed like releasing the big burden he carried. No, no, I might be overthinking. But he had to choose. And I got to adjust it :) for the sake of his happiness. 
• My home's getting hotter each day. Not by the sunshine exposure, but the everlasting stiffness that's going through my mom and me. My mom is a super woman who handles everything in the role of being single parent. But apparently she might be too tired to rule alone. So she's now in her lowest mood of everything. Never dare to even touch her, hehehe. But I luv u still mom.

And the last thing I could say is that I don't have someone appropriate to share those things directly. My best friends here are already busy after Ied Mubarak day ends. My best friend there I haven't tell, I'm just gonna wait until we meet and I shed her my whole creepy story. So I guess this blog is the best temporary place for me to confide in.

P.S: I Love You. xoxo.

Yesterday lesson learned.

The one that you prioritized doesn't always make you their priority in return. Never blame them for not prioritizing you back, blame yourself for thinking that they will. And additional self blaming for making them priority at the first place :) a lil slap on my face maybe? Need one urgently.

More unimportant thing about me.

ANGER
1. Are you currently mad at someone?
- I'm nervously disappointed, but I'm not mad.


2. Which family member has the worst temper?
- My mom. She could smile entire morning and a tiny mistake could break her whole mood :p


3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone's face?
- Not that I remember. Not in purpose.


4. Does your face turn red when you're angry?
- My face is always reddish so, it's quiet difficult to define.


5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?
- I prefer doing both.


EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?
- Yes, but it's more likely to be a presents instead of party. So, no.


3. Which of your friends is most excitable?
- Eyi I guess HAHAHA


4. If you won a million $
- I'll get myself my own island and starting to make a new civilization.


5. If you could have anything right now, what would it be?
- Ability to read people's mind.


YOU
1. Name:
- Nicky


2. Where were you born?
- Padang, hoam.


3. What's your main goal in life?
- To be able to love myself. that's the first step of all.


4. Do you want to have children?
- If only I could own one of them just now....


5. How do you want to die?
- Painlessly, with smiley face.


OPINIONS
1. Sex before marriage?
- Not a good idea.


2. Lower the drinking age?
- Why should there age restriction? A drunk people is drunk.


3. Abortion?
- That's abusive


4. Recycling?
- Who would says no? That's a must.


LOVE
1. Do you have a crush?
- Not really no.


2. Who is the best hugger that you know?
- My daddy forever.


3. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- Nope. Infatuation at the first sight, yes.


LAST
1. Person you saw not in your family?
- My sister's friends.


2. Person you hugged?
- My mom.


3. Movie watched?
- Malaikat Tanpa Sayap.


4. Song you listened to:
- Owl City - Fireflies


TODAY
1. What are you doing now?
- Sleepy typing.


2. What are you doing tonight?
- Nothing.


3. What are you going to eat for dinner?
- Everything my mom made me. A girl in fasting is seriously hungry bastard.


TOMORROW
1. Is:
- Another boring day.


2. What are you doing?
- Going back to my hometown


CURRENTLY
1. Currently love someone:
- Kinda.


2. Like someone:
- Oh, maybe.


3. Do they know it?:
- I don't think so.


4. Is it a simple or complicated situation?:
- Uhm a bit complicated. We seem to walk in a different route.


5. Does someone like you:
- I don't know, i'm bad at it.


IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU
1. Had sex?
- Nope


2. Bought something?
- yap. Some clothes.


3. Gotten sick?
- yuhuuuuu. Puked all day.


4. Been hugged?
- Yey.


5. Felt stupid?
- This is everyday thingy.


6. Talked to an ex?
- yap. They all just suddenly popped out of nowhere.


7. Missed someone?
- Every day.


8. Failed a test?
- Nope, Alhamdulillah.


9. Danced?
- Traditional dance :p and I was totally weird


10. Gotten your hair cut?
- Nope. I think i have to.


11. Lied?
- Not quiet remember.


UNIQUE
1. Nervous habits?
- I squeeze my clothes with my wet hand.


2. Are you double jointed?
- I'm not quite sure


3. Can you roll your tongue?
- With some help by my teeth, haha, yes.


4. Can you raise one eyebrow?
- Nope. Thats my biggest challenge of all years.


5. Do you make your bed daily?
- Hmmmmm yep, my mom taught that.


6. Do you think you are unique?
- I think everyone's unique.

Kiw ;)

You'​re trapped in a room for 3 days with your ex, what do you do?
Awkwardly silent until my stomach makes that horrible sound.

You'​re stuck​ on an elevator with the person you have fallen the hardest for. What happens?​
Since i'm not into him anymore, I'm gonna act as elegant as possible. And awkwardly silent.

Do you want to marry​ your boyfriend/girlfriend​?​
Not for now, I never really think about it.

When is the last time you were in a photo​booth​ taking pictures with friends?​
last semester.

Who'​s the last person you had a sleep​over with?​
Ka Nabel.

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoid​ed seeing them?​
I have. People need their "me time" sometime.

On average,​ what do you think​ you cry about​ the most?​
My dad's touchy advice.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can tell every​thing​ to?
Of course! I even got 2 of them.

Does it matte​r to you if your boyfriend/​girlfriend​ smoke​s?​
Totally.

Do you think​ you have made a difference​ in anyone'​s life?​
I do. And that's such a great feeling when he told me so.

Which​ of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
Eyi. And the boys.

What'​s going​ on between you and the last person you kissed?​
It's a bit complicated.

Are you going​ anywhere next summer?​
I havent think about it.

Are you waiting for anyone to call right​ now?
Not really, no.

Are you shy?
Not particularly. I'm more likely to be an extrovert.

Are you talkative?​
For some occasion, yes. totally.

Do you announce when you have to pee?
A lot............ I know its weird.

Who was the last person you cried​ in front​ of?
Eyi and Ria.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?​
I'm great at failing it. I never good to hide anything.

How is life going​ for you right​ now?
Bored.

Do you trust​ people easily?​
Nope. I always have room in my heart where I could be thinking of every possibilities that they lie to my face. Even "they" refers to the closest person in my life.

Do you give out second​ chances easily?​
Only if i know that would be worth it. Which means that's so rare to happen.

Do you smile​ a lot?
I do :)

One thing​ you'​re looking forward to?
Places references to held tifocraft.

How do you feel about​ change?​
Some are remarkable, some are suck. some just weird but fun.

Have you ever cried​ from being​ so mad?
Yep.

Do you get the recommended eight​ hours​ of sleep​ each night​?​
Yes. totally. And i dont know why.

Are you ticklish?​
Yes, like, very much.

Behind the emptiness

Here's a chance to see how well you really know your spouse/significant other. Cut, paste, and fill in the answers, then forward. The real challenge is to send it to your spouse/significant to see if you are right!
No I will never send it. See, I answer them over my emptiness. No hard feeling!


1. He's sitting in front of the TV. What is on the screen?
Football match of course, especially when Intermilan are about to play. Oh and Masih Dunia Lain.

2. You're out to eat. What kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
Mayonaise. And other weird things :p

3. What's one food he not like?
Everything that is sharp!

4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What drink does he order?
Ice tea i guess. He doesnt make as much experiments against beverage as food.

5. Where did he go to high school?
SMAN 1 Bukittinggi.

6. What size shoe does he wear?
43 I guess.

7. If he were to collect anything, what would it be?
Umm, he doesn't have any collections, but I think he'd love to collect guns if possible.

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?
One with cheese and pickle maybe.

9. What would this person eat every day if he could?
Donuts with almond as the topping.

10. What is his favorite cereal?
I dont think he likes one.

11. What would he never wear?
Sneakers.

12. What is his favorite sports team?
Inter milan.

13. Who did he vote for?
I dont know.

14. Who is his best friend?
That mentastic four fellas.

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?
I love wearing t-shirts.

16. What's his dream job?
Being a lecturer as a sidejob, after completely make his own company.

17. You bake him a cake for his birthday. What kind of cake do you make?
A blackforest. He likes all kind of cakes i think.

18. Did he or she play sports in high school?
I dont think so. but, maybe, futsal.

19. What could he do for hours?
play video games.

20. What is one unique talent he/she has?
He cooks master.

WHAT, IS,THIS? Errrrrrrr.

1. What is your best friend's Mom's name?

I dont Know

2. Where is the weirdest place you have a mole?

Errrrr on my bust -_-

3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had? 

No, I'm lucky enough to be surrounded by some guys my age that I dont really have time to notice that hottie lecturer.

4. Have you ever made out in a movie theater? 

Nope. I ever saw other couple did it and i swear for my life that's annoying.

5. What body part do you wash first?

My hair.

6. Do you hover over the toilet in public bathrooms? 

What is this?

7. What's the strangest talent you have?

I can sing and kill insects at the same time.

8. Do you have an innie or an outtie? 

My belly button? Innie all the way.

9. What's your favorite flavored Pringles? 

None.

10. Have you ever been tied up? Do you want to be?

I have. And it's fun enough as long as I enjoy the motive i'm being tied up.

11. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?

I dont remember, its like plenty of years ago

12. Do you parallel park or drive around the block? 

I dont drive. huhu.

13. Have you ever had two dates in one night? 

In my dreams, yes. I'm dating my boyfriend while I'm loving Andrew Garfield too.

14. How many times have you been cussed out? 

Never. In my face :p I dont know what happen in those hearts

15. Which shoe do you put on first? 

Left one.

17. Have you ever been to a gay bar? 

I never even entered any bar. My mom would strip me off.

18. Girls-- 

They're impossible. im impossible.

19. Is there one thing all of your love interests have had in common? 

I dont think so. I lways ended up in a much different character when it comes to next.

20. Did you French kiss before you were 16? 

Nooooooooooope.

21. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting? 

Nope.

22. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep? 

That special one. And everyone is special.

23. Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you? 

I dont think so. But yeah, a poem.

24. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or not wash your bath towel ever again, which would you rather not wash? 

My bath towel i guess. i'm gonna use it only after i completely refreshed.

25. Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable? 

All the clothes my mom owns. I dont even remember the time she ever wears that one reddish black dress.

26. What was your childhood nickname? 

Cici.

27. When is the last time you played the air guitar? 

Never.

28. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room?

Who am i? a psycho? never.

29. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?

I dont drive.

30. Have you ever bitten your toenails?

Errrr I dont even think i can do that.

31. How do you eat your cookie? 

Bite and swallow. the end.

32. When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt? 

I have never worked out in a gym.

33. Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others.

Daydreaming

36. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?

I never get drunk. Once I fainted over a sparkling sprite.

37. Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt?

Yuck no.

38. How often do you clean out your ears?

Only as often as possible.

39. Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper? 

Scrunch you weird.

40. About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie? 

Is that even important? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

41. Do you have any strange phobias?

Being rejected.

42. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? 

leaves.

43. What is the stupidest thing you've ever done at a bar? 

I'm dreaming to get there.

44. Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted? 

Oh yes. I answered these dumb questions to kill time.

45. Have you ever called your love interest by an ex's name? 

Never.

46. Have you caught a guy/girl farting while on a date?

Lol never.

47. Have you ever played naked Twister? 

I've never played Twister.

48. Have you ever been drunk at work?

 I've never been truly drunk.

49. Have you ever found your date's/lover's brother or sister more attractive? 

I didnt really notice. 

50. Do you want to bring sexy back?

Big no. 

how's your wedding plan gonna be?

1. how old are you?

18. What? Too young to participate? Oh whatever I'm bored.

2. are you single?

Uh I don't know hahaha

3. at what age do you think you'll get married?

24 the soonest, 28 the latest

4. do you think you'll marrying the person you are with now?

yes. and no. I dont know like seriously.

5. if not, who do you want to marry?

Andrew Garfield ;)

6. who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?

My bestfriends! And my dad.

7. do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?

Garden wedding wud be cute ;)

8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon?

Lucerne of course. Oh and Venice. Or paris.

9. how many guests do you think you'll invite?

As much as ppl me and my husbie are close with.

10. will that include your exes?

Dependent. Really really dependent.

11. how many layers of cake do you want? layers of cake?

I think that's just going to be my mom's business. She's great in cakes thingy.

12. when do you want to get married, morning or evening?

Both. Hihi.

13. name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.

Jangan lagu yang memancing kegalauan yang jelas-_- owl city and SO7's songs are great :9

14. do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife?

Since I want to held garden wedding plan, Barbecuing will be the only option~

15. champagne or red wine?

Emmmmmm.... none.

16. honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?

Right after the wedding :3

17. money or household items?

Household items! The cutest one.

18. how many kids would you like to have?

2 as twins hehe

19. will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?

It gives me idea :3

20. whose wedding plan would you like to know next?

Everyone!

Randomization.

"Dunia ini tempatnya orang-orang dewasa. Kita hanya perlu berpura-pura tua untuk melewatinya, atau berpura-pura muda untuk menghindarinya." -cuplikan film Malaikat Tanpa Sayap

Agak susah mengartikan kalimat itu. Tokoh yang menyebutkan kata-kata tersebut di film MTS bernama Vino, seorang remaja tanggung berumur 17 tahun. Mungkin menurut sudut pandangnya sendiri, tidak ada tempat yang benar-benar pas untuk ditempati oleh mereka, para remaja. Di satu sisi, ia bisa dianggap masih belum cukup umur untuk mengerti apa yang terjadi, dianggap belum pantas untuk mengetahui apa yang "mereka" bicarakan. Di sisi lain, lingkungan mengajarkannya untuk mulai bertanggung jawab terhadap dirinya sendiri, untuk mulai memikirkan akan menjadi seperti apa dirinya di masa depan. Dipercaya untuk memilih, tapi tidak dipercaya untuk memilih. Mungkin seperti itu kehidupan seorang remaja. 

Tahun ini aku akan menginjak usia 19 tahun. Wow, aneh sekali. 19 tahun terasa cukup lama ketika diucapkan, namun setelah aku meresapinya dengan apa saja yang telah kucapai, apa saja yang telah kulakukan, rasanya baru kemarin aku lahir. 

Aku belum melakukan banyak hal.

Lamanya waktu bisa diukur dari berbagai kejadian penting yang pernah datang ke kehidupanku, begitu cara ku memaknai waktu. Kejadian-kejadian yang benar-benar aku ingat dalam hidupku, kejadian yang cukup bermakna, bisa dibilang sangat sedikit. Aku tak pernah menjadi pemenang lomba nasional apapun, aku tak pernah mengikuti kursus menari, alat musik, bahasa jerman, dan sebagainya. Aku bahkan tidak pernah berjalan-jalan keluar kota bersama papa dan mama. Kalau bukan hanya sama mama, ya sama papa saja. Dan, yang paling sederhana, aku tidak pernah memiliki memori tentang makan malam bersama di meja makan rumah bersama papa dan mama. Hehe. Begitulah, 19 tahun terasa sangat singkat bagiku sekarang.

Menjadi remaja mungkin tidak seindah kelihatannya. Indah, ketika kau tahu ada orang-orang yang akan menopangmu menuju kesuksesan, yang akan selalu ada untuk membantumu ataupun sekedar memberi saran. Ketika kau tahu, bahwa setidaknya usaha kerasmu untuk meraih semua kesuksesan itu memiliki alasan. Tentunya aku memiliki alasanku sendiri. Aku punya papa, mama, adik, kakak, dan diriku sendiri untuk dibahagiakan. Tapi, terkadang ini semua masih terasa berat. I have a different life that no one will ever understand. 

Tetapi, menjadi remaja juga memiliki iramanya sendiri. Kau tidak bisa menghindarkan hidupmu dari hormon-hormon normal yang mulai bekerja pada tubuhmu. Cinta monyet, begitu istilah yang sering kudengar. Terlalu cepat bagiku untuk menyimpulkan ketertarikan pada lawan jenis sebagai cinta. Tapi, apapun itu, aku menikmati setiap tapakannya yang sedikit banyak mengalihkan pikiranku dari masalah ini dan itu. Cinta monyet :p

Sahabat juga berpengaruh besar sekali dalam pertumbuhanku. Aku sangat bersyukur memiliki beberapa orang yang selalu menyiapkan telinga mereka untuk mendengarkanku, mendengarkan segala ceritaku yang tidak penting sekalipun. Aku senang melihat mereka menghargai itu. Ah, ternyata aku kaya. Aku punya sahabat, aku bisa jatuh cinta, dan aku punya mimpi.

Oh iya, mimpi. Aku bermimpi membahagiakan kedua orangtuaku. Apapun yang mereka perbuat padaku, mereka adalah orang yang melahirkanku keatas dunia ini. Mereka hanya lupa, atau tidak mengerti, bahwa apa yang mereka lakukan telah menorehkan sedikit cacat pada perkembangan mentalku. Perkembanganku.

Aku menyayangi mereka semua. Aku seorang remaja, yang saking labilnya, bisa merasa sangat marah dan rindu dalam waktu yang bersamaan. Aku ingin merasakan mimpi-mipi itu menjadi nyata dan mendarat dikedua tanganku. Aku ingin merasakan mereka mengubah hidupku, menyatukan titik-titik yang kuciptakan sendiri, menjadi satu kesatuan indah yang akan membawaku kepada kebahagiaan seutuhnya, bersama orang-orang yang kucintai.

Semoga aku belum terlambat untuk itu.

Copas dari blog sebelah, hehehe.

• 1: Full name : Nicy Octavia Wijaya
• 2: Zodiac sign : Scorpio
• 3: 3 fears : Scorpions, ignorant, rejection
• 4: 3 things I love : Food, Books, Lavender smell
• 7: My best friend? : For Now? Leliana Anggraini ;)
• 9: My best first date? : When someone made a graffiti of me on a big, big wall. lupa kapan.
• 10: How tall am I? : about 165 cm.
• 12: What time was I born? : 5 am.
• 13: Favorite color? : red, blue, black and white.
• (where is the 14?)
• 15: Favorite quote? : i'd rather live as if God's exist and die tofind out He doesnt, than live as if there is no God and die to fint out there is.
• 16: Favorite place? : Beach
• 17: Favorite food? : everything except seafood.
• 19: What am I listening to right now? : voices in my head. my keyboard taktiktaktik.
• 20: First thing I notice in new person? : the eyes, and smell.
• 21: Shoe size? : 39
• 22: Eye color? : brown
• 23: Hair color? : brownish
• 24: Favorite style of clothing? : Jeans and t-shirt.
• 28: Favorite movie? : CIN(T)A
• 29: Favorite song? : Best Friend - Toybox
• 30: Favorite band? : Ada Band, Owl City.
• 31: How I feel right now? : Hungry.
• 32: Someone I love? : AFM.
• 33: My current relationship status. : in relationship
• 34: My relationship with my parents. : I prefer to be with my dad.
• 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night” texts? : Um-hm.
• 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? : on average: 1.5 hours.
• 45: Where am I right now? : My Sister's crib.
• 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? : At Its Maximum Volume.
• 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? : Nope.
• 49: Am I excited for anything? : Yes.
• 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? : I have my bestfriend.
  55: What is something I disliked about today? : I haven't take a bath yet.
• 57: What do I think about most? : Tifocraft and Entrepreneurship Program of Work.
• 59: Do I have any strange phobias? : Phobia of Being Rejected, maybe.
• 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? : Both.
• 62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? : None.
• 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? :I like the idea of aliens existence.
• 64: Do I believe in magic? : Yap.
• 65: Do I believe in luck? : Very much.
• 67: What was the last book I’ve read? : The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon - Stephen King
• 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? : Nope.
• 69: Do I have any nicknames? : Cici. Cing.
• 71: Do I spend money or save it? : Save to spend. hiks.
• 72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? : No
• 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? : My pajamas is pink.
• 74: Favorite animal? : Cat.
• 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? : Snoring?
• 80: What is my favorite word? : “Kak Ci bucuuuuuk bau ketek udah pulang “ (papa)
• 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? : Haaaaaaaai. let's be friend! :D
• 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? : Relieve every unimportant scare feeling in myself.
• 86: What is my current desktop picture? : A photo of me, Rere, and Rendy.
• 89: Gotten pregnant? : Not Yet.
• 94: Had job? : Not yet.
• 95: Left the house without my wallet? : Never.
• 104: Been overweight? : Never
• 105: Been underweight? : Is it underweight to be 165 cm and 47 kg?
• 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? : Always at holiday.
• 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? : never.
• 109: Been outside my home country? : Yes
• 110: Gotten my heart broken? : Yes.
• 119: Learned another language? : Japan.
• 134: What do I want for birthday? : A handmade gift wud be cute :3
• 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? : 2 as twins. Trisha Agitha and the other one will be decided by his dad.
• 138: What was my favorite toy as a child? : Remote Control cars, robots, playstation -_-
• 139: Favorite TV Show? : Nothing.
• 140: Where do I want to live when older? : Lucerne.
• 148: What I’m really bad at. : Singing.
• 152: What do I like about myself? : I never underestimate anyone, or even think negative about them before it really happen :)

My kind of guy

ow , here's what you're supposed to do , and please do not spoil the fun . Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers , type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in facebook to answer this . Then see what happens.If you're a girl - post this as " my kind of guy " , If you're a boy - post this as '' my kind of girl '' .





1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
 appropriately.



2. Smart?
 ought to be.


3. Preferred age?
 No more than 5 years old older :3



4. Preferred height?
180 something.



5. How about sense of humor?
 Smart is going along with humor sense, should be.


6. How about piercings?
 Nope.



 7. Accepts you for who you are?
 Ought to be.



 8. Pink hair?
 Don't kid me. -____-



9. Mushy or no?
 The same answer with "does chicken gives birth?"



 10. Thin or fat?
 Six pack if counted :p



11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
 isn't there any option for blue skin? :9



 12. Long hair or short hair?
 Short.



13. Plastic or metal?
 what?



14. Smells good?
 Most important too. it influences my comfortness to be around him.



 15. Smoker?
 Nope.



 16. Drinker?
 yakult drinker? no problemo.



 18. Muscular?
That would be sexy :D



 19. Plays piano?
 yes and teach me :O



 20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
 yes please xD



 21. Plays violin?
 Romantic enuf.



 22. Sings very good?
 Til i melt into his glees ;)



 23. Vain?
 Nope.



 24. With glasses?
No problem.



 25. With braces?
 ugh, nope.


26. Shy?
 big no. I can't stand sit next to shy person more than 2 minutes.



 27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
 good.



 28. Active or passive?
appropriately active.



 29. Tight or bomb?
 average -_-



 30. Singer or dancer?
 Singer. A sexy singer.



 31. Stunner?
 Yes but no tebar pesona to everyone, i hate that -_-



32. Hiphop?
 eh?



 33. Earrings
nnnnnnnnnnnno.



 34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
 Go to hell.



 35. Dimples?
 Kinda cute :3



 36. Bookworm?
 No problem.



 37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
 In some special occasion, it would be beautiful :)



 38. Playful?
Should be.



39. Flirt?
 Eeeehehehehehehe. Not really.



 40. Poem writer?
 No problem :p



 41. Serious?
 Just know when to be.



42. Campus crush? (penakluk kampus?)
 No problemoooo. As long as, back again, no tebar pesona.




43. Painter?
 That's a great one. yessss.



 44. Religious?
 Of course since he would be my imam ;)



 45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Nope, not really.



 46. Computer games or Internet freak?
Both are okay :)



 47. Speaks 20 languages?
 Not tht much -_-



49. Good kisser?
How do i tell?



50. Loves children?
 yes, totally yessssss.

yuk jalan-jalan ke masa lalu.

taken from google

Dear T dan I,

Hai, hai, hai. Sebelum aku menuliskan apapun yang nantinya akan membuat kalian shock dan ternganga serta terharu jijay, aku ingin memberi tahu bahwa ini surat pertama yang kutulis seumur hidupku. Say thanks to oom @hurufkecil dengan canangan "30 Hari Menulis Surat Cinta" nya di twitter. Surat cinta? Entahlah, apapun ini, yang penting jangan sampai surat ini berakhir di tong sampah pikiran kalian. Hargailah!

Tahu nggak? Orang pertama yang kupikirkan ketika ingin menulis surat ini sebenarnya adalah pacarku. Tapi, ketika aku baru menyusun ide-ide kalimat di dalam otak, nama kalian berdua mendadak muncul seperti pop-up, memberiku inspirasi dan semangat lebih untuk menulis ini ;) sekali lagi, hargailah!

Belakangan aku hanya sering berpikir bahwa hubungan kita bertiga sudah semakin renggang. Aku bahkan, jujur saja, mulai merasakan perasaan agak asing ketika aku menemui salah satu dari kalian. Call me lebay, tapi aku kangen masa-masa awal kuliah. Tepatnya ketika ospek.

Aku ingat ketika kita masih menjalani ospek di kampus baru yang masih terasa asing untuk kita semua. Itu adalah masa-masa dimana mungkin semua orang akan menyimpan taring dan borok-boroknya dulu demi seorang teman. atau banyak. Semua bersikap ramah, aku ingat sekali.

Tapi tidak dengan kalian. Ingat kan, sebelum ospek kita sudah mulai dekat? Bahkan kita bertiga hampir setiap hari curhat secara paralel. Jadi tidak heran, ketika akhirnya bertemu, aku bisa merasakan kenyamananku yang pertama setelah aku menginjak kampus itu. Ya, aku baru saja mendapatkan 2 sahabat baru. Bahkan, dengan begonya, aku entah kenapa kepikiran untuk melabeli kita bertiga dengan sebutan "bayi tabung kecampur". Kuharap kalian masih mengingatnya. *baiklah, aku mulai menulis ini dengan perasaan campur aduk. it's H-1 UAS loh!!!*

Ketika akhirnya kegiatan ngampus dimulai, kita bertiga yang beda jurusan, ternyata masih akrab dan bahkan makin dekat. Aku selalu suka dan tidak pernah bosan memandangi satu persatu foto kita bertiga. Apalagi ketika sadar bahwa aku yang paling cantik disana :p

Inget nggak, film pertama yang kita tonton? Final Destination 5! Film yang sukses membuat salah satu dari kalian ketakutan dan akhirnya menutupi mukanya dengan tas ransel.

Film kedua yang kita tonton? Abduction! Film yang, ehem, agak sedikit diatas level perfilman yang diijinkan mama untuk kutonton. kesal sekali mengingat sebagian besar adegan film kuhabiskan dengan menutup mata. Oh iya, aku bahkan masih mengingat popcorn yang waktu itu lebih manis daripada popcorn yang pertama kali kita beli.

Inget nggak, suatu hari kita pernah, secara kebetulan, memakai baju yang sama-sama berwarna biru? Dan demi mengabadikan momen ajaib itu, kita bertiga foto-foto dikampus. Bahkan hal sekecil itu kuanggap ajaib, entah kenapa.

Oh iya, bagaimana dengan fotobox pertama kita di GI? Bukan fotonya yang membuatku senyum-senyum sendiri saat ini, tapi perjuangan kita kesana yang terbilang cukup ekstrim. Untuk pertama kalinya semenjak di Jakarta, aku menyebrang jalan tanpa melewati jembatan penyebrangan. Dan menginjak bundaran HI! HAHA.

Kalian juga objek yang sering kuceritakan kepada pacarku loh. selalu senang membahas kalian berdua :)

Semoga kalian nggak pernah berpikir kondisiku yang sekarang, yang udah nggak jomblo lagi ini, menjadi pemutus hubungan per-bayitabungkecampur-an kita. Kalian tetap salah satu yang menduduki posisi teratas hatiku kok. Tapi sering-seringlah berkunjung, biar nggak berdebu.

Semoga bayi tabung ini akan selalu hidup. Dan semoga kita nggak pernah tua sekalipun beranjak dewasa.